statement of intent (& notes to self)

03 Sep, 2023

This post is one-part silly and two-parts serious.

It's sort of a little reminder to myself. Like, Okay, I'm picking up blogging because it's fun and I think it will be good for my overall mental health. ¹ So, while I'm here, there are some things I would like to steer towards.

I feel like I've been kind of locked out of my Creativity and Sense of Self ² for the last few years. My memory is terrible, I struggle with word-finding and getting my thoughts out without them winding all over the place, and I totally shut down when I have to talk about big feelings.

I honestly think a lot of this has worsened recently due to an increase in anxiety and insecurity, so I'm hoping that I can counter the effects of whatever curse lock I've put on my brain by giving myself the space and freedom to allow my words to spill out in whatever format feels right.

I've been in an intake zone for awhile. I'd like to get into an output zone, if that makes any sense at all.

I'm also a big fan of writing down my goals going into anything new. That way, I can reflect back later and look at how my priorities changed and what I accomplished.

I'm pretty good about following this format in a work environment, but I've never been as good at implementing it into my hobbies and personal projects.

I thought I'd give it a try here!
So, y'know...here goes!

Top 5 Intentions

• Cultivate a mindful practice

• Unblock the creativity dam

• Re-learn to articulate my thoughts

• Re-learn emotional vulnerability

• Learn something new about myself

Journaling Intentions

This is composed of two parts:
Part 1 (Readers):

• I'd like my posts to be friendly in nature and enjoyable to read - at the very least, my hope is that at least one thing I write resonates with someone else in a positive way.
• I think that's the joy of an online blog v. a private journal - you can get the thoughts out, and then maybe those thoughts will float gently like a message in a bottle on the digital waves. :) It's a mental image that makes me so very happy.

Part 2 (Self):

• I want my content to be both fun & creative for me, but I also want to walk through my inner thoughts. I'll have to accept that this aspect might clash with the "engaging to wanderers stumbling upon my internet bubble" part of this statement. I mean, I knew when I started this post that it might be really, really boring to read through. (This one's mainly for me, though. Some things have to be.)
• I want to utilize this space thoughtfully (introspections, analyses, reminders).
• I want to utilize it creatively (poetry, prose, write-ups of artistic endeavours).
• I want to make a practice of it. Maybe a post once a week or once every other week. I'm trying to get better at upkeep of habits.

Conclusion

Maybe I'll come back and update this intermittantly if I think of anything else. Maybe I'll just do a follow-up at some point. I just wanted a space to look back on later. Sometimes I don’t notice the progress I’ve made on something until I have a point to reference, you know?

Anyway, if you made it through this, I’m appreciative! Thank you for traveling on my train of thought. I'm sure we're all here (i.e. Bear) for different reasons, which is why I thought it might be enjoyable to lay my reasons out on paper online.

Until next time.

Good luck out there!
Eve

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