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The cage is open. You can walk out anytime you want. Why are you still in there?

What I write is all mine, it’s a living thing, it’s an extension of me that wanders out into the world.

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none of us is;
or else we all are.

[…] I suffer, yes. Yes, I suffer. And I still
love nothing like I love myself. My life, stained orange like the tangerines.
I feed the dog. I accept this living, let a slice dissolve one my tongue,
hold both the acid and sweetness.

Then you hold life like a face
between your palms, a plain face,
no charming smile, no violet eyes,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again.

If I describe something, anything, long enough,
language will lead me back to wanting it.

getting out of that hole, falling into another one; sometimes falling into a hole within a hole, or many holes within holes, getting out of them one after the other, then falling again, saying “this is not your grave, get out of the hole”; sometimes being pushed, saying “you can not push me into this hole, it is not my grave,” and getting out defiantly, then falling into a hole again without any pushing; sometimes falling into a set of holes whose structures are predictable, ideological, and long dug, often falling into this set of structural and impersonal holes

Would I live my life over again?
Make the same unforgivable mistakes?
Yes, given half a chance. Yes.

You always believed me. Wish you would
come back so we could talk about truth.
Miss you. Wish you would walk through my
door. Stare out from the mirror. Come through
the pipes.

I just need to lose
a little
less quickly.

I forgot. That’s how
everything goes now,
all of the time.

Out of the forest I come with my flowers, singing, all alone.

Do I dare
Disturb the universe?

[…] We’re still bound
to go on having this hunch

everything has left us or is waiting
for the worst possible moment to do so.

you are not alone,
the poem said,
in the dark tunnel.

But it’s not like that, is it? Not at all. When in this world, similes carry us nowhere.

I lock you in a form that is part music box, part meat
Grinder to separate the song of the bird from the bone.
I lock your persona in a dream-inducing sleeper hold
While your better selves watch from the bleachers.

The centuries watch
as we walk off
the sheer cliff of them.

My eyes adjust to the dark,
but my heart never.

There are wind chimes
and the smell of lemons, some days
it rains, but more often the air is dry
and sweet.

Mostly, I want to be kind.

Are you ready? Is everyone paying attention?
Very well then. Here are two hills.

I didn’t know a dream
could undo a true event, uncement it,
but it did — from then on, I hadn’t gone, and how
do I live with myself now, I ask each day —

[…] If there’s a ring around the stone
inside your pocket, if you’re very
very quiet, if you promise
to be lucky, if you’re good
enough.

House with hands. House of guilt. House

That other houses built. House of lies

And pride and bone. House afraid to be alone.

The way I can write the shape of the
thing but not the thing itself.

There, in the ground, there is our memory. I am near enough my roots.

wait, look now, John Wick is riding
the black horse like he knows just what grief is
like he knows sometimes it’s killing and killing and
sometimes it’s just slipping in your shoes and
I want you to be here and

That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,
And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?

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